Go down swinging

Lately there’s been a lot of projects (both for my company and personal) that I’d like to accomplish. Often these projects involve coordinating other people, convincing them, explaining, selling…

And often it takes a lot of convincing myself: Is this worth it? If this fails, how bad will it affect me? It will take a lot of effort…

This type of stuff. It slows things down, it hurts momentum, it wears on me.

Until I remind myself that at worst, it’s bombing. At worst, it’s exploding in my face and nobody will forgive me for it – except of course, myself.

And I’ll always forgive myself as long as I go down swinging.

Not half-assed, not timidly, not quietly. That would be hard to live with on any scale.

But if I’m going down, I’m going down swinging.

Cheers.

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5 responses to “Go down swinging

  1. Good to hear.

    It’s just too easy to freak oneself out. The biggest battle is within, right? Something like that…

  2. It really is. I’m totally invested right now in developing a true-crime book to publication. I may not make it, but it won’t be for lack of effort. But I’m not discounting the possibility that I could be my own biggest impediment. Questions and thoughts constantly ricochet around my brain pan:

    “Who am I kidding? I’m not good enough for this.”

    “Seeing big projects through has never been my strong suit.”

    “Can I really get people to talk to me about the horrible things they’ve seen and done?”

    “Am I capable of organizing a coherent narrative? I can barely keep my plants watered and my checking account balanced.”

    Then I remember that I’m a good writer, an experienced reporter, a skilled researcher, a strong listener. And that I have the time to do this AND work a full-time job.

    All that, and I want nothing more than to make this happen.

    Oh, and that I’m enjoying the hell out of it.

    It seems to work.

  3. It really is. I’m totally invested right now in developing a true-crime book to publication. I may not make it, but it won’t be for lack of effort. But I’m not discounting the possibility that I could be my own biggest impediment. Questions and thoughts constantly ricochet around my brain pan:

    “Who am I kidding? I’m not good enough for this.”

    “Seeing big projects through has never been my strong suit.”

    “Can I really get people to talk to me about the horrible things they’ve seen and done?”

    “Am I capable of organizing a coherent narrative? I can barely keep my plants watered and my checking account balanced.”

    Then I remember that I’m a good writer, an experienced reporter, a skilled researcher, a strong listener. And that I have the time to do this AND work a full-time job.

    All that, and I want nothing more than to make this happen.

    Oh, and that I’m enjoying the hell out of it.

    It seems to work.

  4. The way I see it, the only real external obstacle to your book becoming a reality is the whole “book” part.

    Nobody (other than yourself) can stop you from writing good content, using your reporting skills for research and discovering the real storytellers.

    The book part – that typically requires capital, or a publisher, or something of that sort.

    I guess I’d keep up what you’re doing, and don’t get so caught up in the physical end product.

    Here’s a blog post from Hugh Macleod speaking on avoiding the gatekeepers in the publishing world:

    http://www.gapingvoid.com/Moveable_Type/archives/004429.html

    Glad to see that regardless, you’re going down swinging!

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